….I think my soul might be an age far beyond the number of times my body has circled the earth.
14 SIGNS YOU’RE AN OLD SOUL
….Yes/ No? You? How old?
….seems all 14 fit, what do you think?
After reading this article, what I’ve sensed about being an old soul – by which I do not mean to say I am wiser better more or anything in particular but especially not in an “I’m better than” sorta way. Is it good to be an old soul? Is the disclaimer needed? I don’t even know so……
I see the old oak trees – Live oaks- that are mighty, strong and be not fooled by the smaller stature as they grow slower but live to be older and speak for themselves, a sight for sore, searching, seeking eyes as windows to souls. Growing up along the coast where Live Oaks over 300 years still stand (barely I think) up around 100 feet many branches reach to the sun then out wide until the weight of the branch itself out balances the reaching up and instead some eventually touch the earth.
How it simply it set to seeing and growing toward the sun and down into the earth expanding with time another day another year. How time moves forward until a tree is the epicenter of a mini-ecosystem encircling it the birds sounds tell stories that must be beautiful tales and the soft moss on feet moist and cool and wondrous the dry moss branches hold drift down and sway with the wind.
Saying welcome, come and sit here for a while soul. As I lie under the mossy grassy root circle and gaze upwards at the light as it touches the tree or earth illuminating green everything I can see and the air tastes and smells of dirt and fresh dense humid air filtered mixed with sun’s heat radiated….the taste of being alive and the sense of contentment sinking into the earth and protected by the branches.
AND finally finally this soul feel free lifting it plays and feels the peace beneath in roots of safety I see more of who it is that I am. Windows open and flows out parts of me. I wonder what the tree has seen — the civil war and slavery plantations nearby before and after slaves lives here maybe stood here where I am and then soldiers and sea seekers and who else and what other sights — animals and plants that come and go and off off goes my imagination. Endless and limitless expanse I can feel the size of the universe. The infinity that is each moment and memories held within this tree and in me.
Me who has visited the same tree at 5 and 13 and 17 and 19 and nearly every year since save not 30 or 31 so far. I yearn to be like the tree and how it seems so strong how it stands and keeps on trying to grow and silently watches and keeps to itself its job to just be and invite all creatures to eat from it and nest within and how I long for roots beneath my feet to steady me against where I find myself in the world each time I visit. I wonder if it sees me and senses how I feel and if its only my imagination that I feel it feels to and holds wisdom whispered in the wind that blows over me. I am yet another soul beneath it searching seeing seen.
Yet there is something about it, being beneath the tree that pulls me back to visit it this constant in my life but that’s not it either it’s the age of its soul and the aliveness and how it feels to share space, me and the tree, between the earth and sky Both breathing, exhaling into the air what the other needs connecting we are alive inhaling souls connect and the tree stands strong stronger old older soul.